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I AM AN ARTIST

Connect I Collection - Abstract Paintings by Olivia Lin

For as long as I could remember, from the time I could hold something in my hand and make a mark with it, I wanted to be an artist. And for almost as long, I didn’t feel like I could call myself that.

I studied fashion design so that makes me a designer, not an artist.

I create brush lettering so that makes me a letterer, right?

I also let other people’s misconceptions affect me–of being a “starving artist”, that art isn’t a “real” job, etc.

Then at some point I realized, why am I believing these things that aren’t true? And why can’t I call myself an artist–when I’ve been an artist my entire life

This collection I recently shared is very special to me–it’s what I’ve always wanted to create. And although it took me many years to get to this point, I don’t think it would’ve been possible without that time and those experiences. I feel extremely vulnerable letting this go and setting it free into the world, but it’s another step in my journey as an artist–I know it will help me grow and evolve. And as nerve wracking and scary as it is, it’s also been so exciting and joyful!

If you are reading this and don’t think you are an artist (or designer, writer, poet, painter, business owner, whatever title it may be) I hope you are encouraged to look at yourself in a new light and call yourself what you feel most aligned to and what you know that you are, deep down inside.

And if you are having doubts of putting something you’ve poured your mind and heart into out there, I hope you take this as a sign to move forward and do it–no matter how scary it is–because you deserve it. I’m also a big believer that there’s a reason why we feel called to make the things we make and that someone out there is waiting to find it.


THE “I” WORD

Connect I Collection - Abstract Paintings by Olivia Lin

I can’t explain exactly how I felt while I was making this new collection but the closest I can get to describing it is joy and alignment! I haven’t felt this way in a long time. But immediately after I finished, I was hit with total imposter syndrome, some crazy negative thoughts, and questioning all of it!

Thinking about it now, I feel it was my ego trying to protect me from the idea of failure or rejection. Sharing our work—of any kind—can feel incredibly scary, nerve wracking, and vulnerable!

After confiding these feelings and thoughts in trusted friends (THANK YOU!), it helped reaffirm what I knew I needed to do deep down inside— stick to the plan and move forward! And to embrace how much I enjoyed the process and not stop myself before I even started!

We are 1 day away from launching (update: it’s launched and you can see it here!) and I’m still scared and nervous but mostly excited!

Have you ever felt this way too? Are you feeling like that now? If the answer is “yes” and you somehow stumbled upon this post, I hope you take it as a sign to shift your mindset and to remember that you are not an imposter!


HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY, VALENTINE!

Valentine's 14th Birthday!

11 Februarys ago, I didn’t follow my MapQuest directions properly, got lost, and drove onto the same street that a dog was lying in the middle of and it changed my life forever.

On Feb 6th, I took Valentine home with me. We are guessing she was 3 years old at the time which would make this her 14th birthday!

I made her a special fruit and veggie platter and we also went to the park to celebrate! :)

Here are a few more photos from from our years together including her first day home and her shelter listing (with directions on there so I could go get her)!

Happy 11th adoptaversary and 14th birthday, Valentine!

Valentine's 14th Birthday!

13 ASIAN VOICES TO LISTEN TO, FILMS TO WATCH, + ACCOUNTS TO FOLLOW

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Gong Xi Fa Cai! Happy Lunar New Year! I wanted to celebrate by sharing 12 Asian voices and stories to listen to, watch, and follow.

As a child of parents who immigrated from Taiwan, these stories–especially the ones of growing up first generation in America–really resonated with me. I could see bits of my own experiences in them and they made me feel like I was not alone in going through them.

I hope you’ll check them out this weekend and continue to seek out and listen to voices from Asian filmmakers, creators, leaders, and advocates year round. Best wishes for a happy, joyous, and prosperous Year of the Ox and enjoy :)

PS: While 13 is an unlucky number in the western culture, not so much in the Chinese culture! It’s considered a lucky number because the character for 3 (三) sounds similar to the one that’s used for birth (生) and therefore has connotations of life and growth.

LISTEN

This American Life | #567: Act Two – RSV-Pa

Larry speaks English. His dad speaks Chinese. They grew up in the same house but Larry could never speak to his dad. After 20 years, with the help of filmmaker Bianca Giaever, he and his dad have their first conversation. This story began as part a collaboration called Videos 4 U, where Bianca helps people with a confession they wanted to tell someone else but they didn’t know how to say it.

My eyes welled up with tears listening this story! I think a lot of us can relate to not being able to say what we want to say to a parent or loved one, whether there is a language barrier or not.

This American Life | #585: Act One – What You Don’t Know

Filmmaker Lulu Wang tells the story of an elaborate attempt to keep someone ignorant — her grandmother — and how her family pulled it off.

I remember being fascinated and touched by this story. If the summary above sounds familiar to you, it may be because Lulu’s film The Farewell is based on this!

WATCH

The Farewell

Written and Directed by Lulu Wang

In this funny, uplifting tale based on an actual lie, Chinese-born, U.S.-raised Billi (Awkwafina) reluctantly returns to Changchun to find that, although the whole family knows their beloved matriarch, Nai-Nai, has been given mere weeks to live, everyone has decided not to tell Nai Nai herself. 

Awkwafina is the perfect Billi–she made me laugh and cry. It’s a heartfelt film and you must watch until the very end to see how everything turns out.

To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before 1, 2, and 3!

Based on Jenny Han’s bestselling book series

If you know me at all, you know that I am a HUGE fan of the To All The Boys movies with the final one coming out Friday, 2/12 on Netflix! The films are based on the young adult novels by author, Jenny Han. I actually hadn’t heard of the books but the reason I stopped to watch the movie was because the movie poster had Lana Condor, an Asian lead, front and center and I was curious what it was!

It wasn’t until TATBILB that I really thought about how representation makes a difference–I wish this movie came out when I was growing up!

One of my most favorite parts is a reference to a Korean word and I am so excited they will be traveling to South Korea in the third movie (I won’t say anymore–no spoilers!) I highly recommend for the sweet, feel good vibes, all the different types of love and relationships (from sisters to crushes) the film touches on, and Lana’s AMAZING acting–nobody could have been a more perfect Lara Jean!

Tigertail

Written and Directed by Alan Yang

The deeply powerful and personal film is based loosely on Alan’s experiences as the child of immigrants, as well as what his father went through, coming to the Bronx from Taiwan to find opportunities. 

I knew I had to watch this when I saw the trailer and I heard them speaking in Taiwanese! This was definitely a tear-jerker for me–I cried so hard watching I couldn’t breathe! There’s so much heartbreak and sacrifice but also love and hope. It hit close to home as my parents also immigrated to America from Taiwan and I could really relate to the daughter in the film. I feel like this movie tells the stories most of us don’t know about our parents–their lives before us and the people and memories they leave behind. You can watch this film on Netflix.

The Half Of It

Written and Directed by Alice Wu

A coming-of-age comedy-drama exploring friendship, love, and sexuality, as well as the hardships of a Chinese family’s integration in the U. S. When smart but cash-strapped teen Ellie Chu agrees to write a love letter for a jock, she doesn’t expect to become his friend–or fall for his crush.

When I first saw the trailer, I thought this was another typical high school rom-com but it was much more than that! One of my favorite quotes is from this film: “Is this really the boldest stroke you can make?” You can watch this film on Netflix.

Little Big Women

Directed by Joseph Chen-Chieh Hsu
Written by Joseph Chen-Chieh Hsu and Maya Huang 

A family grapples with the passing of their estranged father and the remnants of the life he led during his absence.

I haven’t seen this yet but it’s on my to watch list! The trailer started playing when I logged onto Netflix the other day–the Taiwanese being spoken caught my attention! I am really looking forward to checking this one out!

FOLLOW

@AmandaNgocNguyen

I recently found Amanda on Instagram and wish I had been following her sooner–she is incredibly inspiring! Here is her bio from Rise:

Amanda is the CEO and founder of Rise. She penned her own civil rights into existence and unanimously passed the Sexual Assault Survivors’ Bill of Rights, after having to navigate the broken criminal justice system after her own rape. The federal law was the 21st bill in modern US history to pass unanimously on the record and served as a model for 15 other laws protecting sexual violence survivors throughout the nation. Amanda has been named a Forbes 30 Under 30, by Foreign Policy as a Top 100 Leading Global Thinker, Marie Claire as a Young Woman of the Year, and The Tempest’s #1 Woman of Color Trailblazer. Previously, Amanda was appointed by President Barack Obama to the United States Department of State as his Deputy White House Liaison. In 2018, Amanda was nominated for the 2019 Nobel Peace Prize.

@AngryAsianFeminist

Racism against Asians has always existed but the recent rise throughout the pandemic–especially against the elderly–has been especially heartbreaking, scary, and infuriating. I came across AngryAsianFeminist’s posts and they have put into words how I have been feeling, better than I could have. If you haven’t heard of what’s been going on, follow this account, read the posts, and/or do a Google search.

@RedHongYi

Red Hony Yi is another artist I recently discovered and I am in awe of her creativity (she uses things like chopsticks, items from her pantry, flowers and other non-traditional materials to “paint”) and inspired by her activism. Here is her bio from her website:

Red Hong Yi is a Chinese-Malaysian contemporary artist who makes work expressing her heritage and Chinese diasporic consciousness. Known as “the artist who paints without a paintbrush”, she creates mixed media installations by reinterpreting everyday materials through the accumulation of objects. By combining traditional craftsmanship and digital technology, she creates work that consider perceptual habits and preconceptions on the chosen objects and subjects, expressing the themes of women and race.

@Wantshowasyoung

This is such a precious Instagram account that always makes me smile! It features grandparents, Chang Wan-ji and Hsu Sho-er, both in their 80s, modeling forgotten clothes left at the laundry shop they own in Taichung, Taiwan. Their grandson created the account as a fun thing for them to do during the pandemic. Their style is on point and they are adorable! There have been many articles written about them as well, here is a profile from The New York Times.

@The.Korean.Vegan

Joanne creates beautiful food and shares them alongside stories she narrates that are just as beautiful–full of honesty and vulnerability , watching every single post, salivating and crying, and wanting to hear more from her! Please head over to her IG now to experience it for yourself. She talks about everything from growing up Korean American, relationships, fear, food, and everything in between. Then when you’re done going through her posts, check out her website for plant-based recipes–I am excited to start trying them!

@ChinatownPretty

This account is from the book, Chinatown Pretty, and celebrates the street style of seniors living in Chinatown. I don’t know what it is with seniors and fashion but I am a big fan! Chinatown Pretty features seniors from Chinatowns in San Francisco, Oakland, Los Angeles, Chicago, New York, and Vancouver. You can learn more about the book and project on their website.


THE 100 DAY PROJECT 2021 | MEDITATE + PAINT | DAYS 1-10

100 Day Project - Meditate + Paint - Atiliay.com
100 Day Project - Meditate + Paint - Atiliay.com

Happy Day 10 of The 100 Day Project (here’s a video montage of the days 1-10)! That actually went by much faster than I had anticipated–maybe it’s because every day I wake up and am excited to work on my project!

My current routine is to read that day’s entry from The Book of Awakening by Mark Nepo as well as a page from Self-Meditation: 3,299 Tips, Quotes, Reminders, and Wake-Up Calls for Peace and Serenity Paperback, usually while I eat breakfast. When I finish, I pick a place to sit, set my timer for 5 minutes, and begin my meditation. When it’s time to open my eyes, I head over to my canvas to add another stroke. I love starting each day like this and I honestly don’t ever want this project to end!

100 Day Project - Meditate + Paint - Atiliay.com

Exploring different techniques, adding shapes. and creating texture has been so interesting and freeing–it’s not easy for me to not know how a project will turn out so this has been a great exercise in embracing the unknown, being in the present, and letting go!

It’s funny because single prediction I’ve had has turned out completely different! For example, that paint splatter above? I thought it’d look more like dot splatters!

I’m starting to find it easier and easier to just go for it! Although I do have a little safety net in knowing that a lot of layering will be happening so if something is REALLY bothering me, there is a high likelihood of it being covered up later ;)

Here’s what I did on day 4-10–I was even able to get a little help from Valentine!

100 Day Project - Meditate + Paint - Atiliay.com

Day 4 | I’ve been mixing a few dots of black paint into the same container of white to create new shades of grey. Today I used a paint brush and went with a curved shape.

Day 5 | Went with a bold stroke by scraping black paint down the canvas

Day 6 | Added a splatter–this was really fun!

Day 7 | It was Valentine’s 14th birthday and 11th adoption anniversary! I really wanted her to make a mark on this canvas too so I added some paint, covered it with paper, had Val step on it, and peeled the paper off.

Day 8 | I covered my eyes, turned the canvas a few times, and used my non-dominant hand to paint a stroke

Day 9 | Added a layer of white by scraping the paint.

Day 10 | I had recently found and used a can of chalk board paint for a another project–then I decided to use it on my canvas too! I forgot to check to see where the nozzle was aiming so it ended up in a different place than I thought but that’s the beauty of all of this!

I cannot wait to see how the next 10 days will add and change to this canvas–I’ll be sharing another update then! I also think I am ready to tack on another minute to my meditation!

In the meantime, you can follow along and see daily posts at @oliviajlin_, learn more about my project in this blog post, and get more details about The 100 Day Project here. (It’s never too late to start your own!)

100 Day Project - Meditate + Paint - Atiliay.com

THE 100 DAY PROJECT 2021 | MEDITATE + PAINT | DAYS 1-3

This project has been SO much so far and I wanted to share a few pics from the first 3 days. I’ve been posting photos and videos every day over on my Instagram for my tiny home, @oliviajlin_. (Since this art is for that space and it isn’t lettering, I decided to post there.)

100 Day Project - Meditate + Paint - Atiliay.com

A quick recap: my 100 Day Project for 2021 is 100 days of meditating for 5 minutes followed by painting 1 stroke onto this canvas. If you’d like to learn more about what The 100 Day Project is, head over here.

Maybe it’s because I’m still in the honeymoon phase but I totally look forward to both the meditating and painting everyday! So far, the 5 minutes have gone by very fast–I’m considering adding a few more minutes each 1/4 of the way…but we’ll see. And adding each paint stroke is really fast too! But the fact that it doesn’t take too much time is what I think will help me reach the finish line (read more about that in this post)!

100 Day Project - Meditate + Paint - Atiliay.com
100 Day Project - Meditate + Paint - Atiliay.com
100 Day Project - Meditate + Paint - Atiliay.com

Day 1 | Swiped a few dots of paint on the canvas

Day 2 | A brush stroke

Day 3 | Used my thumb

(See process videos here.)

100 Day Project - Meditate + Paint - Atiliay.com